I am a girl. I have all the parts of a woman and identify and a woman, but I am a fanboy. I say this because the term fangirl has gotten a bad wrap in recent years. Starting with The Beatles woman across the globe have fallen in pieces over something they were obsessed over, going as far as attempting to ship themselves overseas.
I am not one of these women. I don't like being associated with them. Yes, I get really fucking excited about shit that I am a fan of but, I am not going to stalk them, trample others to get to them, or try and invade their lives in any other way. I will go and support all I can because I truly care about these things and people.
I have "proud mama" moments all the time. Just the other day I was lucky enough to get a signed copy of The Land of Stories by Chris Colfer. I was physically dying. I have only watch Glee ever because of him and the character Kurt in whom he plays. He is only a year-ish older than me and has done so much, in this year alone. He has written and stared in a full length movie, written his first novel, and is continuing to work on various other projects including Glee. SO naturally I began jumping up and down with excitement. It wasn't even that it was a fan moment but more of a "how the fuck did I get so lucky, shit like this never happens to me" kind of moment. I'm reading it and I'm just so proud to be supporting just an amazing person. I've got some proud mama feelings.
I have these feeling with a lot of things. It just happened when I saw an ad for The Trevor Project's new merch! Like this is something I am a part of and I'm just so happy things are going well for them. I get the same feeling every time I see Chicago's skyline from a far or step on to the sidewalk out side the train station and breath in that dirty air. I can't help but smile and think "my baby". I feel like that's more of a fanboy type action.
The cray fan girls give some of us a bad name so I'm changing mine. I'm a fanboy. Fuck your societal norms or paradigm!
